As the title suggests i have started to see the cracks in my relationship we have had a bumpy and rough time lately stupid fights arkward situations but we've always been able to pull through accept and move on..... everyone has faults nobodys perfect and things about other people can be iritable at times but what if some things just get to much people can try there best to be a bit more caring and better themselves
but with me and andre it always boils down to the same thing he is always far to lazy and he doesn't deny it which kinda makes it worse because it just makes it more annoying but what gets me the only thing he is lazy towards is me,,,,, like he never takes a break from his studies hes never been late handing in a project or assignment hes never not bothered studying for a continious assessment. hes never not bothered to go to work hes never been late for work,,, ok hes been late for school at few times but whos not ??
but like things like meeting me for an arrangement oh its only sarah it doesn't matter .... "oh im too tired" " today i can't be bothered sure i can see her any time..." i am the least important thing in the world every excuse under the sun is grand its only me....
i put up with this all summer he let me down so much anytime i wanted to do something i had to almost beg him to do something all full of empty promises i always tried to forget about it because i didn't want to think just lalalalal to it i like my little bubble of what i want is what i see anything that goes wrong i block out
theres no use living in a dream i supose.... the last few weeks we knew a bank holiday was coming and andre said oh we can go to howth take photos i had this great plan we would take photos to show his dad ireland as comunication is definitely going to be a problem.... anyway these wer suposed to be towards this idea and then on friday he made a dampener of it by saying he may have to work on sunday so i just accepted it then i thought on sunday we could take photos on monday in bray before he had to go to work then he was all ifs and maybes so sunday night we agreed to do it if it wasn't raining then i woke up this morning it wasn't raining actually quite sunny so i text him organised myself to go had my shower n everything finished still no response i tried ring him his fone was off so i was already starting to get a vibe this was bout 9:30 then i waited then 10:30 he rang me to tell me its too late to go its going to rain blah blah to rushed so that was that then i started getting really pissed off and i was hurt and decided im not making those photos for him he can forget it and i told him that and then he just laughed his headoff tried to swet talk his way out of it but it just wasn't good enough and i couldn't take it hes just selfish and doesn't care about anyone but himself i was making this for his dad and he wasnt bothered so why should i bother??
