A new era has begun..... or has it?

A new era has begun..... or has it?
Its time to move on with my life but in what dirrection???? north, south, east, west....
surely there is somewhere i belong.... surely there is someone i belong with???
decisions, decisions, do i throw my life away and stick with someone who is miserable because of me. but i love him.
or should i throw him away and find someone who i can love and he can love me... my options at the moment are quite limited... but in the end someones going to get hurt... if i move on without telling him it will be horrible for him. but if i don't move on and stick with this it will be horrible for both of us....
what should i do????
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# Posté le dimanche 18 octobre 2009 06:46

Modifié le lundi 19 octobre 2009 15:02

happy birthday Zhi Bai ^^

happy birthday Zhi Bai ^^
i can't go to china next january i must stop u
Well it has been awhile. How are u all? well i have been busy lately doing a teaching training course. oh my god when will it ever end it has really worn me out. i met some nice people in it and some not so nice.... but hey it was a good experience and it was something for the future. Then in july i went to spain with my family just for 11 days well actually it was tenerife not spain... but same thing really spanish everywhere english everywhere. i had been there before.i think i looked at it differently this year. i think i have grown perhaps this is my last family holiday end of an era. i came back last wednesday... back to all the bullshit. i haven't met my boyfriend since i got back he was working 12-10 at night each day excapt sunday... and on sunday i wasn't even here to meet him my parents draged me down the countryside.wexford was as allways wexford lol. i came home sunday night. oh i forgot to mention it was my boyfriends birthday last thursday and obviously we couldn't meet up. so last night i was all geared up wrapped up his presents and wrote the card and then he finished work told me oh no we can't meet up til next saturday i was like wff. and hung up. then he kept calling and told me he was joking i was like ha???? wff. then i had more good news his family want him to go home to china in january again. he said he can pay for my ticket but what about our exenses. but is allways butting in. especially in our relationship. we could do this but......... yea but is quite the annoying. so anyway i decided this pic to remind me of what i won't be seeing next january. nice

just the 2 of us
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# Posté le lundi 10 août 2009 06:36

Modifié le lundi 10 août 2009 06:50

Eminem- Relapse...

after 5 years of waiting Eminem just resurrected himself!! and released his new album RELAPSE he went through a period of addictions of various things. but luckily he seems to have recovered now. I am just hoping he will hold a concert here :D:D I heard he is releasing another album at Christmas. However it hasn't been all good he has gotten some negative reviews this time... people expected him to release the same old same old... like his first few albums... but he is older now so what do u expect.

some of my favorite songs from the album are..
Bagpipes from Baghdad
Beautiful
My mom
We made you
The ganja
There's others i just can't think of....

None the less here is the video for Beautiful
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# Posté le jeudi 11 juin 2009 13:10

Powerscourt

Powerscourt
Last week i started doing a TEFL course to become an English language teacher abroad. I originally got the idea a few months ago when i thought my boyfriend was moving back to China in September... so i decided to this course just in case i ever move to china so that i will actually have the qualifications to be hired there... so that i wouldn't have to sit around doing nothing... Its a pretty intense course i have had classes 9-5 this week and last... and i had my first teaching practice on Tuesday. It didn't go 100% to plan, lets just say.. I didn't have enough material to use... which was really embarrassing... but i had another teaching practice today and it went a hell of a lot better ^^

The week previous i went to Powerscourt with my boyfriend.... it was a nice experience. i used to go there every friday with my aunt and cousiins... and my sister and brother. so it was good for old time memorys.....
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# Posté le jeudi 11 juin 2009 12:54

what a wierd train ride....

what a wierd train ride....
I knew yesterday was going to be a wierd day my mom hassled me all morning about cleaning and blah blah blah and i was just so fed up. then my boyfriend said i could go in and meet him at the college after he finished in the gym. he didn't seem to care whether i came or didn't so because of that i wasn't that bothered what time i got in there at. I had my lunch n all n them my mom left to meet my aunt i was up in my room tidying and then i suddenly started organising all the stuff i was given in china. I put on some of the jade jewelery its made of jade and red string basically. I was going to wear the bracelet and the necklace but i think it was a bit over the top of patrioticism lol so i settled for just the 2 bracelets even still i felt a bit wierd but didn't care. then i changed my mobile phone charm to something similar to the bracelet. red string and jade stones. i had doraemon since china and was just bored of it frankly. It made my phone alot lighter changing it...

so then i left the house walked down to the station. got in the carriage sat down there was a newspaper on the ground and it was stuck together with chewing gum so i riped off the front cover obviously without touching the front cover and red the thing and left the two parts oposite me when i was done. Then this black/indian/romanian im not sure what ethnity he was or what language he was speaking it wasn't indian i'm certain. he was quite dark skinned... anyway he picked up the stuff red the newspaper part that i had... then he tried to pull open the part that was stuck with chewing gum ewwwwww and then once he did that he fooled it up and then he put it in his mouth..... very wierd and very gross. i didn't say a word then after that he put his legs up on the seat beside me and lied down. Then i was bored i started fiddling with the bracelets... he must of noticed and then suddenly he put his hand in his pocket took out a colourful bead bracelet and handed it to me... I know the whole don't take anything from a stranger thing,,,, but i went against my instinct and said "is this for me?" he said "yes" i took it said thank you... when he gave me the bracelet i felt like i should give him money to be honest it was so wierd. then we sat in silence tor the rest of the train ride then i arrived at my station he got up before me and said bye... i said thank you bye bye.... then i as i was walking out of the train i noticed he was carrying a fold up chair. and a huge bag i guess he must be a busker....

one of the oddest train trips ever i have only ever talked to a complete stranger maybe 3 times before in the last 2 years.... @.@
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# Posté le samedi 09 mai 2009 09:11