I feel pretty much alone now. today my cat was sitting on my knee and i was thinking how nice it would be if i could talk to her and tell her everything knowing she won't tell anyone. i tried to tell her i tried to tell her something aloud.. and i couldn't say it. It just wouldn't come out of my mouth. i guess im pretty ashamed of what i have become.
I used to be a very pure honest person but since the only person i ever really cared about has droped me i don't feel any reason to try to be pure or even try to be anything, i just don't care anymore. i have stoped respecting myself i have stoped respecting others. I am being fake with people i am being cheap. i just have let myself go. i need to get a grip. pull myself together. purify myself, respect others, stop cheating, stop lying and start being honest again

